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[01 Nov 2005|08:49pm] |
Well every time that I think Im going to do it
I never make it through it,
And every time that I hold my head up high
Somebody punches me right in the eye,
You know its hard to see,
But the future never looks that good to me,
I know I shouldn't talk this way
Maybe, it's alright and I'm the one thats wrong
Maybe, if I die this sadness will be gone
There have been times when, I could o-most say
Things were going my way,
But as I felt my confidence rise, it will crumble right before my eyes
I could never belive in me,
cause I can never make things how there suppose to be,
Im gonna blow it every time
Maybe, it's alright and I'm the one thats wrong
Maybe, if I die this sadness will be gone
It's in my head (it's in my head),
That Im better off dead
Maybe, it's alright and I'm the one thats wrong
Maybe, if I die this sadness will be gone
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[28 Oct 2005|11:17pm] |
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When the hell will my life end????
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| Objective: |
[09 Aug 2005|11:19pm] |
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Kill the person that created the phrase, "I like you as a Friend"
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| I Am A FUCKING Loser, kill me now |
[25 Jul 2005|11:10pm] |
The winter slowly turned into spring
i've been so lost since you've been gone
and still i'm waiting for the phone to ring
i've been so lost since you've been gone
but i'm still in love with you
yeah i'm still in love with you
like a fool
like a fool
like a fool
And still i'm waiting for the phone to ring
i've been so lost since you've been gone
and it seems like i'm waiting for nothing
i've been so lost since you've been gone
but i'm still in love with you
yeah i'm still in love with you
like a fool
like a fool
like a fool
Cuz i am a loser
i am a loser
i am so lost without you
i am a loser
i am a loser
i am so lost without you
i am a loser
i am a loser
i am so lost without you
i am a loser
i am a loser
i am so lost without you
i am a loser
i am a loser
i am so lost without you
without you
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| Are You Fucking Happy? |
[05 Jul 2005|01:19pm] |
In this hole
That is me
The dead are rolling over
In this hole
Thickening
Dirt shoveled over shoulders
I feel it in me
So overwhelmed
All this pressure centerizing
My life overturned
Unfair the despair
All these scars keep ripping open
Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?
Tear meat from the bone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy now?
In this hole
That is me
A life that's growing feeble
In this hole
So limiting
The sun has set; all darkens
Buried underneath
Hands slip off the wheel
Internal path-way to contention
Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?
Tear meat from the bone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy now?
Are you
HAPPY
Are you
HAPPY
Are you feeling happy?
In this hole
That is me
Left with a heart exhausted
What's my release??
What sets me free?
Do you pull me up just to push me down again?
Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?
Tear meat from the bone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy?
Peel me from the skin
Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?
Tear meat from the bone
Tear meat from the bone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy now?
Does it make you happy?
Are you feeling happy?
Are you fucking happy?
Now that I'm lost, left with nothing
Does it make you happy?
Are you feeling happy?
Are you fucking happy?
Now that I'm lost, left with nothing?
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| Friends, Dont Let Friends Fuck Fat Women |
[29 Jun 2005|02:10am] |
She gotta smile,
Yeah, She gotta smile and
she's flashin' it right at me
She gotta wink, a wink across
the bar and I know that it's meant to be.
She gotta walk, Oooh she walkin' over
and i know this could be my day.
She got a ... friend,
Eeeew she gotta friend;
Why's she standin' in her way?!?
It's her big fat friend!
Oh god there's always one
Big fat friend
To ruin my F---ing fun!
Well baby baby baby
if it's boots you wanna knock,
Leave your chubbly friend at home
because she's gonna block the cock.
Now I'm afraid of no man,
With any I'll contend,
But I cannot compete with your
Big Fat Friend.
(Well Big fat friend, Ah, we meet again!)
She won't leave her alone,
She rolls her eyes; makes sarcastic
coments while she's suckin' on that
chicken bone.
Well, you may think you've won the
battle but i tend to dis-agree.
See I know you, and your Achelies Heel,
And he's standing next to me.
My non-discriminating friend
(So what that you're a cow!)
Non-discriminating friend!
(I'll nail you anyhow!)
Now I know that he's no looker
and he's had a couple rounds,
But with every shot of Jager
hey you loose a couple pounds!
Now baby baby baby bring the
evening to an end,
Just you and me and my pal,
and your big fat friend.
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| Nobody wants you here anymore!!!! |
[21 Jun 2005|07:03pm] |
Late dawns and early sunsets, just like my favorite scenes
Then holding hands and life was perfect, just like up on the screen
And the whole time while always giving
Counting your face among the living
Up and down escalators, pennies and colder fountains
Elevators and half price sales, trapped in by all these mountains
Running away and hiding with you
I never thought they'd get me here
Not knowing you changed from just one bite
I fought them all off just to hold you close and tight
But does anyone notice?
But does anyone care?
And if I had the guts to put this to your head...
But would anything matter if you're already dead?
And should I be shocked now, by the last thing you said?
Before I pull this trigger,
Your eyes vacant and stained...
But does anyone notice?
But does anyone care?
And if I had the guts to put this to your head...
And would anything matter if you're already dead?
And now should I be shocked, by the last thing you said?
Before I pull this trigger,
Your eyes vacant and stained...
And in saying you loved me,
Made things harder at best,
And these words changing nothing
As your body remains,
And there's no room in this hell,
There's no room in the next,
And our memories defeat us,
And I'll end this direst.
But does anyone notice?
But does anyone care?
And if I had the guts to put this to your head...
But does anything matter, if you're already dead?
And should I be shocked now, by the last thing you said?
Before I pull this trigger,
Your eyes vacant and stained...
And in saying you loved me,
Made things harder at best,
And these words changing nothing
As your body remains,
And there's no room in this hell,
There's no room in the next,
But does anyone notice, there's a corpse in this bed.
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| Your losing... |
[16 Jun 2005|05:23pm] |
You're on your own my little nightmare you cannot stay here
It's far too bright for you
If they attack you just lay there,
Play dead dear, it's your only hope of pulling through.
And seconds they seem like a lifetime.
A dream, recurring, a dream that can't come true.
And they'll pin it all on you
after all you've been put through.
"Sadie G. she's crazy, see?"
That's what the white coats say.
Now Ms. Susan A. you're losing
every opportunity to put us all away.
Now on your own my little nightmare.
Your job is done here.
You've scared them all to death.
If they revive them just sit there.
Just smile dear. Make them thankful for every breath.
The sentence may seem like a lifetime, a scream that's curdling, the blood they found on you.
And your knives and clothing too.
Charlie's broken .22
"Sadie G. she's crazy, see?"
That's what the white coats say.
Now Ms. Susan A. you're losing
every opportunity.
Well they found you and they shipped you up the river the same way that you've bound and gaged.
You've shot and stabbed.
You tried to set them free, but they've thrown away the keys.
"You represented a god to me that was so beautiful, that I'd do anything for him. I'd do anything for god. Even murder, if I believed it was right, how could it not be right if it is done with love? Because he said it was. I have no remorse for doing what was right to me, I have no guilt...in me"
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[09 Jun 2005|02:01am] |
Hmmm. What a weird crush!!!!
On the lighter note, they call the zima drink "Flavored Beer", Now that is just not right, waht in insult to beer!!!!
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| My time away from the valley |
[22 May 2005|10:08pm] |
So this is how the party starts.... Thurdsay after work i drove up to berkely to hang out and get away from the valley.. how chill was it, it was awsome, not having to worry about what is going on in the valley.. get to my cousins house at about 1 in the morning and wake her up with parker, which was funny cause the first words from parker to my cousin was "did you know there is a giant erection coming out of the ground down the street" refering to an old chiminy stack.. we get to bed and wake up the next morning.. we head off to berkely to hang out for the night, we meet up wtih adam's brother and we walked around berkely, trying to get lost, which is always fun... So after that we decided to head back at about 10, when were half away to my cousin's hosue we decided to just head to stanford.. we pick up our stuff from my cousin's house and head to SF to pick up tessa and her friends and head towards stanford... we get there and pass out.... the next day we wake up, eat, and hang out with the stanford band... They played 2 gigs. one at a park carnival, the other one was at a 90 year-old alumni (he graduated in the 30's from stanford)... after the gigs we went back to the dorm to take naps and hang out... when we wake up we went to a little dance for one of her friends.. after the it was sushi time... BOMB sushi, people were doing sako bombs on the chairs, it was a fun time... After that it was PARTY TIME... EXCOTIC EROCTIC BALL.... AWSOME IT WAS... Girls= Two Articl of clothings, BOYS= One article of clothing... IT WAS AMAZING, after that party we went to a frat house and stole beer from the keg..we walked back to the party and had to wait in a line, NO FUN THERE... But some students decided to bring up their cars and blast the radio and drink right in from of some cops...WASTED TIMES it was and a blast at that too .... Always go to exotic erotic you will have fun and drunken naked times too
Peace Bitches
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[06 May 2005|11:49pm] |
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Dont you hate it when yo know you dont fit in!!!!!!!!
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| Here we go again |
[30 Mar 2005|08:10pm] |
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And the start of the bad luck has started again....
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| I want a day |
[06 Mar 2005|11:21pm] |
I've told myself, so many times
Not to turn into the type, but I've found
Is it too late, has my time come?
Sometimes I think I'm losing it
Am I the only one?
Understandin', more like demanding
Where do the grey skies end?
Should I stay or fly away?
The wings that I begin to grow
Will surely let me know
How far I have to go
And I'll be there
Oh yet again, thought I was right
But as usual I end up on the wrong side of the fence
Is it too late, has my time come?
Sometimes I think I'm losin' it
Am I the only one?
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[21 Feb 2005|11:20am] |
Open your eyes
To the millions of lies
That they tell you everyday
Open your mind
To the clever disguise
That the advertisements say
How do they know
What's good for you?
Wake up, wake up, whoa
Wake up, wake up, whoa
A shot to the head
They're better off dead
Will you wake up, wake up, whoa
Destroy all the land
And kill what you can
Just to make the profits rise
Sell you from birth
For all that you're worth
The money spreads like lies
And how do they know
What's good for you?
Wake up, wake up, whoa
Wake up, wake up, whoa
A shot to the head
They're better off dead
Will you wake up, wake up, whoa
Don't wanna hate you
Don't wanna blame it all on you
I'm out of options
If you don't look I'll force you to
If you don't look I'll force you to
If you don't look.. I'll force you to
Wake up, wake up, whoa
Wake up, wake up, whoa
A shot to the head
Just so you can be fed
Will you wake up, wake up, whoa
Open your eyes...
Open your eye
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| Just say Goodbye... |
[17 Feb 2005|11:00pm] |
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I hate my friends I hate my friends I hate my... Two in the morning here I am turning blue I’m drinking up for an old friend Bourbon can’t clean my mind of this voice in my head "I hate my friends" Cause they make me think about the smile that I’m faking I hate my Yeah, that’s the scene that I am in Lying At odds with every bland image How many excuses can this fool listen to You never cared There was no us only misery and distrust I hate my...
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| YSC |
[17 Feb 2005|09:46pm] |
It’s normal for me interruptions ruining my nights
I never get to score I’m not a winner with the girls
Say it doesn’t bother me “but I like you as a friend.”
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| VD |
[14 Feb 2005|05:05pm] |
Valintine day, what a waste of a holiday. If you have a valintine, fuck you, you piece of shit...
Bitter much... NOPE!!!
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| Loved you without knowing it |
[02 Feb 2005|06:22pm] |
When I think of love,
I think of you
You and I said good-bye,
Still I will love you till the day that I die
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| Our relationship |
[25 Jan 2005|04:58pm] |
1. Have we kissed?:
2. Do you want to kiss?:
3. What would you like our relationship to be?:
4. Have we dated?:
5. Did you like it?:
6. Do you want to date?:
7. Are we close friends?:
8. Would you be here if I needed you?:
9. Are you attracted to me?:
10. Mentally, sexually, or both?:
11. Do you love me?:
Appearance
Do you like my-
12. Face?:
13. Eyes?:
14. Lips?:
15. Body?:
16. Arms?:
17. Legs?:
18. Clothes?:
19. Ass?:
20. Hands?:
21. Hair?:
Do think I'm-
22. Sexy?:
23. Beautiful?:
24. Hot?:
25. Cute?:
Personality
Do you think I'm-
26. Crazy?:
27. Nice?:
28. Fun to be around?:
29. Funny?:
30. Annoying?:
Would you..
31. Share chocolate with me?:
32. Spend a weekend with me?:
33. Alone?:
34. Hook up with me?:
35. Have sex with me?:
36. Care if I ran away?:
37. Care if I died?:
38. Miss me if I left?:
39. Hang out with me?:
What would you do if..
40. I kissed you?:
41. You found out I was missing?:
42. You found out I was in the hospital?:
43. You found out I was dead?:
44. I cried?:
45. I asked you for help?:
46. I told you I loved you?:
47. I told you I hated you?:
48. Someone told you I wanted you to kiss me?:
49. Someone told you I had a crush on you?:
In the last week have you..
50. Wanted to kiss me?:
51. Wanted to see me?:
52. Wanted to have sex with me?:
53. Wanted to tell me you loved me?:
54. Wanted to spend alone time with me? *wink*:
55. Wanted to get to know me better?:
56. Thought about me?:
57. Missed me?:
58. Wanted me?:
59. Seen me?:
60. Kissed me?:
Have I..
61. Kissed you?
62. Hugged you?
63. Told you I loved you?:
64. Made you happy?:
65. Made you sad?:
66. Made you angry?:
67. Made you feel better if you were upset?:
Are you..
68. Happy you know me?:
69. Going to post this is so I can answer it?:
70. Done with this survey?:
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